Here are some plans, mostly already in progress, but that's the best way to make sure they happen all year long in 2015.
1. Finish things. Oh, this is so important! Unfinished things are terrible for you, truly. It's so important to finish things that have been hanging around. Or rip them out (knitting only) or trash them or whatever. Finish it or get it gone.
2. Get rid of anything I don't love. I've been working on this! Books, clothes, dishes, yarn, fabric, whatever else might be around. You know that slight reluctance you feel? Getting rid of those things is MUCH more powerful and lasts forever. Yay!
3. Let it grow. Good golly, this big old auburn mushroom head of hair. It's driving me crazy, so this is the hardest point to stick with the growing plan. I'm working out different ways of getting through it/past it, from hats to barrettes to scarves to "product," which is the vaguest name for anything I've ever heard. Product. What, like frozen carrots? They are a product. Washing machines and cars are also. Ahem. ANYWAY. Plan: Do not cut my hair (except vital trims) for the whole year of 2015. Using the hair dryer helps a lot somehow. Do that.
4. Move! I'm good at this, truly. In fact I'm very bad at sitting still. But I'm trying to build strength and muscle in movement, so, like, on the elliptical and on my bike. I have to build up butt calluses or something to ride that bike, seriously--how come bike seats hurt so bad? And although I walk miles every day, the elliptical uses different muscles somehow. Anyway. Muscle! Grow it! In motion!
5. Relax. I used to be a champion meditator back in the day. I'm doing it again, though it causes disquiet amongst the menagerie. I'm also working on the baths and naps. Most importantly, I'm working hard on derailing the stress spiral, where I get too anxious to do anything and that makes it worse. Break the cycle! Do a thing! Taking the dog for a surprise walk around the block is an excellent solution for many problems, for example.
6. Take care of the thing. Like, today I called the pulmonologist that I got referred to and made an appointment. It's better to do it asap than to have it lingering and making me worry. Do the thing. Then the thing is done! Yay!
That's the easy stuff, more or less. Here is the hard stuff:
7. Go out and do things, especially peopley things, but at the very least, go out and write, go to the library, go to the store. I have a terrible tendency to stay home and see no one ever, then do all errands in one trip. Fight the hermit tendencies!
8. Make big plans. Boy do I not do this! Boy oh boy. Like, for instance, I have a vague idea that I'd like to drive down to Crater Lake this week. But I haven't made a plan. It's very good for you to make plans and then carry them out. I avoid this whenever possible. Even planning a painting and then carrying it out is good for you. Planning a sewing project and carrying it out. Even planning meals and carrying them out. Of course I avoid that in case the plans fall through, but that's just daft. Make a plan!
9. Clean every day. UGGGGHHHHHH. Wash the dishes every day. BBLLLLLLAAAAAARRRRRGH. Keep up with yard work all the time instead of once every three months. AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGHHH.
10. Here's the very worst one. The VERY hardest one for me. Have a regular sleep schedule. Don't wanna! And the main reason I don't wanna is: as soon as I try, I get terrible insomnia and then I'm screwed. But I know everything is better if I can do it. I will try. I really will. It's SUPER HARD though. I like the quiet at night when there aren't a hundred runners and dog walkers right outside my window and neighbors right outside my other windows. I like the quiet and the peace. Honestly, day is not so bad, though. Especially in the winter. Dooooooooo eeeeeeeeeetttttt. Also the sooner I get up, the sooner I get done with work, and then I'm free to gallop around doing fun stuff!
Here's my happy fun easy resolutiony thing:
11. Follow ideas down the rabbit hole. I don't know why I even resist this. It's so fun to follow some idea through link after link, on Wikipedia and everywhere, and try to figure things out. Even just learning things like how to adapt a school bus into a home is very cool. I resist this a lot out of some fear of not being on guard, or something--it's a major anxiety thing. Like if I concentrate, I won't be on guard, and then something TERRIBLE will happen. Yikes, that's awful. I'm not always aware of it. So my goal is to be aware of it and allow that deep concentration that I love.
12. Oh, play music! It's the same thing, anxiety won't let me disappear into it the way I need to. Plus I don't want attention from others, for real. That adds up to making it pretty impossible to play music. I really want to fight that and get over it and just do whatever the hell I want to do, for crying out loud.
Twelve is enough, eh? I think so too!
I hope you all have a happy new year and get cracking on all sorts of good things!